I am so tired of this...

[pat]

I am exhausted, in pain from having my wound repacked, and for no apparent reason, really nauseous. I am at the same time isolated and lonely (having mom around helps, but she is my mom and she leads a very different life than I do and there are a lot of things we can't talk about) and at the same time too wiped out to be actually be sociable to anyone. And Brian is out of town today.

When (sometimes it feels like that should be "if") I finally get well I am going to go get hot tub time at Watercourse Way. In the meantime, maybe I'll just go to sleep.