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pat ([personal profile] pat) wrote2002-10-09 01:39 am

I hate my body

I really, really wanted to go to San Francisco with [livejournal.com profile] brian1789 and [livejournal.com profile] sinboy today. I was so weak that it was hard to walk into Brian's office from the parking lot when I went to pick him up. I made the intelligent decision not to go, but I am still frustrated and angry about it. I am so weak and so tired and I feel I will never get better. My muscles shake all over. Dammit all to hell.

*sympathy*

[identity profile] runeshower.livejournal.com 2002-10-09 04:52 pm (UTC)(link)
I know what that's like, feeling as though you'll never get better. From some kinds of traumas our bodies heal very slowly, so slowly it's hard to see any progress. It's terribly frustrating and demoralizing. But we do heal eventually, and so well that it's possible to forget there ever was a problem in that area. Hang in there, Pat. ((hug))

[identity profile] griffen.livejournal.com 2002-10-10 10:15 am (UTC)(link)
Hon, you had major surgery. I know it's muchly with the suckage quotient, but you have to give yourself time. Real time, not the two weeks that surgeons prattle so blithely about.

This is going to take time, and I'm sorry that you're hurting. :( I wish I could help.

[identity profile] patgreene.livejournal.com 2002-10-10 01:37 pm (UTC)(link)
I think this falls into the realm of emotional knowledge versus intellectual knowledge. Intellectually, I *know* it takes time. Emotionally, I'm impatient as all hell.