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I've been away a few days. Spent a time at diocesan convention (which I'll write more about later), had a wonderful time in Monterey with ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
geekchick, and came home and had a lovely dinner with brian1789, geekchick, sinboy, hopeforyou, and clairade. Felt great.
Logged on the LJ. Big mistake. Now I just feel sad. It just underscored what has been so recent an issue for me... that I feel there are few people with whom I can be completely myself. There are the people who can accept my faith and can talk with me about the journeys we find ourselves on as we walk through the world, but with whom I cannot discuss my relationships. There are those for whom my relationships are no problem but my Christian faith is.
And some of the things said felt so.....hurtful. Not so much about God... God is in my belief above my defense or reproach ("My ways are not your ways, says the Lord" Isiah 55: something) but more about the people who share my faith. (Of course, there are people who call themselves Christian who are willing to be equally hurtful towards those who do not share their beliefs, and I recognize that -- it is behavior I find appalling.) I am not a slave, nor am I a fool. I consent fully and completely to my relationship with God.
I started to reply, and then thought... there is no point.
I am myself: my faith in the Creator God and in Jesus Christ, infuses my life. And I have nontraditional relationships which some would call "sinful".
I am myself: Deal with it.
[I am disabling comments to this post because I do not want to be dragged into a theological discussion at this point. The point of this post was really about my feelings of isolation and sadness.]
geekchick, and came home and had a lovely dinner with brian1789, geekchick, sinboy, hopeforyou, and clairade. Felt great.Logged on the LJ. Big mistake. Now I just feel sad. It just underscored what has been so recent an issue for me... that I feel there are few people with whom I can be completely myself. There are the people who can accept my faith and can talk with me about the journeys we find ourselves on as we walk through the world, but with whom I cannot discuss my relationships. There are those for whom my relationships are no problem but my Christian faith is.
And some of the things said felt so.....hurtful. Not so much about God... God is in my belief above my defense or reproach ("My ways are not your ways, says the Lord" Isiah 55: something) but more about the people who share my faith. (Of course, there are people who call themselves Christian who are willing to be equally hurtful towards those who do not share their beliefs, and I recognize that -- it is behavior I find appalling.) I am not a slave, nor am I a fool. I consent fully and completely to my relationship with God.
I started to reply, and then thought... there is no point.
I am myself: my faith in the Creator God and in Jesus Christ, infuses my life. And I have nontraditional relationships which some would call "sinful".
I am myself: Deal with it.
[I am disabling comments to this post because I do not want to be dragged into a theological discussion at this point. The point of this post was really about my feelings of isolation and sadness.]