I'm sorry...

[pat]

There's so much I should write and so many people I should thank (such as geekchick for the flowers and 7patches and daltong for visiting and sinboy for the book recommendation -- which I loved, BTW -- and most of all brian1789 for all he's done) but I just can't write right now. I'm tired and sad for no apparent reason. I'm lonely and isolated but even when I am with people I find it hard to converse -- all I want to do is go to bed and sleep, but I'm finding it hard to sleep.

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[7patches.livejournal.com]

hmmm
post op, post trauma, radical hormone shift, facing the real world, including small energetic boys, change of seasons, losing daylight.
I'd be tired and sad too.
Please give yourself time to heal.
We don't expect you to entertain us.
One day at a time, kiddo.

[brian1789.livejournal.com]

It's okay. I'm here, love. (hug)

Just keep getting better and save your energy ;-)

[daltong.livejournal.com]

FWIW, your reactions are all perfectly normal. I don't know if that helps; it has helped me in the past when I've felt that way due to my own disability and then I add on top of that a fear that I'm just not being "strong enough" or "brave enough" and start feeling guilty and think "If only I would use more willpower, I would be okay..."

It doesn't work that way.

I don't know how to make it suck less. When you're up for it, maybe some of us could take you out for a drive? Maybe even to a casual restaurant with pain pills?

[sinboy.livejournal.com]

So, as I've noticed the prevailing wisdom is that, yes, there is a real reasonable and understandable reason for you to be depressed. I'm not going to say "don't feel sad", but if you do feel the desire to lift your spirits, let me know. I'll call and tell silly jokes or something. What I'd advise most is to not let the depression get too overpowering. Feel it, but don't let it stop you from saying "enough already." and going and finding something to cheer you up when you want to be cheered up.