I'm sorry...

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There's so much I should write and so many people I should thank (such as geekchick for the flowers and 7patches and daltong for visiting and sinboy for the book recommendation -- which I loved, BTW -- and most of all brian1789 for all he's done) but I just can't write right now. I'm tired and sad for no apparent reason. I'm lonely and isolated but even when I am with people I find it hard to converse -- all I want to do is go to bed and sleep, but I'm finding it hard to sleep.

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[daltong.livejournal.com]

FWIW, your reactions are all perfectly normal. I don't know if that helps; it has helped me in the past when I've felt that way due to my own disability and then I add on top of that a fear that I'm just not being "strong enough" or "brave enough" and start feeling guilty and think "If only I would use more willpower, I would be okay..."

It doesn't work that way.

I don't know how to make it suck less. When you're up for it, maybe some of us could take you out for a drive? Maybe even to a casual restaurant with pain pills?