I'm sorry...

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I'm sorry if my sudden disappearance yesterday concerned anyone. I was watching some very nasty mudslinging going on, and it got to be too much. Part of the problem is that I have a very tough time being disciplined enough to let things alone. I find myself ruminating over them, and the LJ drama was taking over my life. Deleting my journal was a spur-of-the-moment, desperate decision to try and distance myself from a situation that was causing me pain and was injurious to my already fragile mental health. I hope that it won't be interpreted as "attention-seeking"; that was certainly not my intention.

But I found myself getting on LJ and checking brian1789's friends list (there is a lot of overlap) to see what was up with people. So I decided since I was doing that, I might as well be honest and undelete my journal.

I am still uncertain how to let go of things..... But deleting my journal, I now realize, is a classic case of throwing the baby out with the bathwater.

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I think just about all of us have been there, done that. One of the ways I've found to help distance myself from the drama is keep reminding myself that no matter what LJ chooses to call it, it is *not* a friends list but a reading list and that is how I choose to refer to it. I have people on the list who happen to be friends, but not all. And when it comes to communities...welll...I haven't been in a community yet that wasn't 75% blithering idjits. I liken it to getting on a public bus. The vast majority may be the ignorant unwahes with whom you're forced to share a ride, but there are one or two passengers who help make up for the smell and the guy in the back who keeps yelling about how the CIA stole his tonsils.

BTW, I'm glad you're back.