I'm sorry...

[pat]

I'm sorry if my sudden disappearance yesterday concerned anyone. I was watching some very nasty mudslinging going on, and it got to be too much. Part of the problem is that I have a very tough time being disciplined enough to let things alone. I find myself ruminating over them, and the LJ drama was taking over my life. Deleting my journal was a spur-of-the-moment, desperate decision to try and distance myself from a situation that was causing me pain and was injurious to my already fragile mental health. I hope that it won't be interpreted as "attention-seeking"; that was certainly not my intention.

But I found myself getting on LJ and checking brian1789's friends list (there is a lot of overlap) to see what was up with people. So I decided since I was doing that, I might as well be honest and undelete my journal.

I am still uncertain how to let go of things..... But deleting my journal, I now realize, is a classic case of throwing the baby out with the bathwater.

Comments

[ag-unicorn.livejournal.com]

Quite pleased to see you return, patgreene.

As for letting go; one of the things I learned from being a member of many bulletin board systems/chat systems/email lists is that, sometimes, you simply have to trust in the power of the "Delete" key/button...and exercise it as often (and in as many places) as required for your own personal sanity...without, as you say, "throwing the baby out with the bathwater."

Withdraw from the conversation when and as needed; your withdrawal does not make your opponents right, and does afford you distance and space in which to gain perspective.