I'm sorry...

[pat]

I'm sorry if my sudden disappearance yesterday concerned anyone. I was watching some very nasty mudslinging going on, and it got to be too much. Part of the problem is that I have a very tough time being disciplined enough to let things alone. I find myself ruminating over them, and the LJ drama was taking over my life. Deleting my journal was a spur-of-the-moment, desperate decision to try and distance myself from a situation that was causing me pain and was injurious to my already fragile mental health. I hope that it won't be interpreted as "attention-seeking"; that was certainly not my intention.

But I found myself getting on LJ and checking brian1789's friends list (there is a lot of overlap) to see what was up with people. So I decided since I was doing that, I might as well be honest and undelete my journal.

I am still uncertain how to let go of things..... But deleting my journal, I now realize, is a classic case of throwing the baby out with the bathwater.

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I'm really glad you're back. :) What I saw on my own friends list, while you were gone, were questions like, "Where's patgreene gone? I like her!" and "Anyone know what happened to patgreene? I'm worried."

I'm trying really hard to just ignore or walk away from some conversations. My attention won't make them better, won't make anyone respond differently, and sometimes only serves to increase my own stress.