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When will I get it through my stupid brain...
I cannot expect him to act in any way but what he does.

i have to build bridges to his friends because he sure as hell won't with mine except to complain about them and i have to remember i have no community where i fit in. i have to forgive and be supportive and nobody gives a shit what i think. if i forget then i actually start having expectations that life will be different and then i am really really screwed.

i am such a fucking idiot.

Thanks....

Thanks to daltong for the brownies (yum!) and to Lori for dropping them off and for everyone who has been sending good thoughts my way.